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Till the End
Tuesday, December 16, 20088:35 AM
Finally POP ~ After 2 months plus of torturing in camp things happened the way i expected before i enlisted. I knew i stood no chance yet i tried sounds dumb , anyway whats done is done no point complaining so much =]. A bit dishearted when i saw *it* but i was mentally prepared so wasnt that bad i guess only wy know what had excatly happened. As i said wy know so doe ask me abt it ask him doe wanna say tat myself. Those signs during the confinement weeks were the positive thoughts for me of whats gonna happened next cuz i know the pattern somehow. Till now i still doe noe what i have to do and history repeated again lik wat happened in the past. So PATHETIC , couldnt help it so much n didnt wan to face it cuz it really sux! Coming face to face again will be hard n i doe wanna even think about it. I know i have to hav the patience n determination , i hav it but some things doesnt mean that i hav to put in those to get it. Anyway i still hav 1yr 7 mths to go maybe i should just let it go. Seems lik it had just slipped thru my hands bleh ~
Days become bored after the 2 weeks of confinement , everytime i get my phone i doe even know wat to do unlike past. Even i got 1hr i just used 3mins n i returned it. Hp become meaningless in camp , no longer hav the feel of getting to use hp. What ive done is fultile =[ Its lik opposite from wat i see from army : a quote from them " you gain when you enter the SAF" i feel thats bullshit , they should change " you will realised what you lost when you entered " . Lost of freedom , not even giving us more privilages lik others. I would just hav to endure n complete the phase "SAF" SERVE AND FUCKOFF wif my 1yr 10mths. Prehaps i should just concentrate with my trainings in camp n chilling out wif my buddies during weekends! At least i know i still have them im not completely lost with nothing.
Next boring chapter : During my 2mths of suffering.
Trainings are freaking shiok even my commander from ninja coy said its worst than there =.= so wtf. Everyday do finish cfm high to the max shirt no "change colour" is fake 1. Worst nightmare inside is AGR and Chin-Up training x.X. AGR = endurance run up to 45mins n the speed is *godlike* really can die ma chiamg dash zomg.. and Chin up training worst = do our max but minimum hav to do 12 wtf -_-. No 12 and u will get special treatment (sounds scary isnt it?) i wont tell u all wat is it u all maybe hav the chance to exp urself hahaha.. Best training i lik is SOC , ST x 2 lols , SOC = standard obstacles course althought cfm shag after finish it but i lik . Completing 11 or 12 obstacles + 1.5km run in 10mins =D ( I did it in 9:30) ^^ but come back look lik ghost face pale lik siao hahaha! Next is Str-Training , taking 5kg wt although sounds light but we hav to complete GODLIKE NUMBERS of set lols ( Go eat doe even hav the str to take fork n spoon) hahahahahaha but its useful training helping us in our pullup!!!!! 1 more ST is speed training = MOST RELAX heehee OTOT training =D becuz of tat i can complete my 2.4km! no kick 9.30-10 flat =] All timeeeeeeee fav phase quote by my SIR ( ENDURE! ) lik training monsters out of the camp.
Thats roughly how my days inside during the 2 torturous mths =x lols.
5 more days to book in~ SIAN AR!
TRAINING IN PROGRESS NOT TO LOSE OUT IN CAMP! ALWAYS BE THE BEST EXCELX! OVERCOME WITH SPEED FORTIFIED WITH STRENGTH!
30 SCE COMBAT ENGINEER ( FIELD PIONEER ! )
IPPT GOLD AND MARKSMAN $.$ =]
Gonna carry on my days after POP tmr lazy now =x FCXLLabels: asmiasssasedas
Boooop
Monday, October 27, 200812:59 AM
What should i really do?? Sometimes its really bothering if i have to stop or really go forward for it. However i feel that is so selfish haix. After that meeting i felt that theres a slight changes , i doe noe wats happening but i felt it that way. Prehaps i should learn to hold n let loose. I will still wait on till u give me an answer. Hope that u're fine n stay happy =]
Last Min
Wednesday, October 8, 200810:27 AM
At this last moment i gonna blog wat happened this past few days =] Gonna be botak soon liao hahahahaha in just a few hours time. Kinda weird cuz it doesnt excites me nor make me scare or watever , instead i felt unsettled bleh. Sometimes i do wanna ask u so much stuffs that i cant even bring up to u when i see u up till now still doe hav the chance. Prehaps i will try to phrase it some other times.
Today went to temple to pray n *qiu qian* n got a nice lot. Partly sounds true about myself and things ive done in recently. IT SOUNDS SO TRUE TAT I ALMOST FREAK MYSELF OUT WHEN I SAW IT. Sometimes everything seems to be fated so i will work myself towards the goal i faced instead looking backward. Then went to Parklane wif ms n yx to play n got this pic damm funny =x 
This is the nicest pic i can ever take hahahaha. Yx smile till lik he damm happy to see me get enlisted =x HAHAHAHA how evil !!
( HE STILL CAN YEA! )
LALALALA YX GOTCHA!
Lastly , thanks lh , wl , gw , ph , ms , wy , cw , yc , yx and last but not least TIM pei me ytd to eat =] Best time ever heehee. But still i will miss u all but i will miss someone more =x bleh doe bash me pls. I really really really hope its gonna be positive n i will prove u wrong i wont change my mind =] Call you back later. ^.o
WILL MISS U GUYS DAMM BADLY BUT I KNOW U ALL WILL MISS ME MORE HAHAHA !! IM DAMM THICK SKIN =]
Labels: Enlistment
1 Got Too Many =/
Friday, October 3, 200812:11 PM
Bleh a thousand apologies wont even help me now. =[ Has thing really gone that bad? Maybe im irritating or nuisance but well all those was just for you. Why does people regret after their doings. Yes i did lied also i know no matter how i say u also wont get in. I know my *last min* thing really made u real mad. Haix , either do i wan it to go that way. Sometimes i really do wan some time wif you just to let u know how i feel but i just cant speak out. Sometimes i doe noe u know or u really doe noe wats happening tat makes me real confused at times. For this very moment im hoping for a miracle to happen. I felt so worried but i felt bad at the same time disturbing u i just cant find any way to get in. Maybe afterall its all my own thinking that causes this.
Last 4 days to go , yet i got so many things i havnt do. Seems to be racing against time trying my best to get wat i wan but it doesnt seems positive either. I still wonder how much do i worth or how much do i stand out. Sounds funny but as long i can understand its more than enuff. Alrdy doe feel well today n wy tat retard alrdy know not going out n didnt inform me made me even worst. I hate people to just cancel everything w/o even telling me at least a notice doesnt kill. Made me wait lik him lik a idiot n ive to call him myself , n yet say so nice to go wif him.
I really wanna hav tat chance , i doe wanna lose it. I seems so lost n no idea wat im doing , hope tat i could find back myself n get everything back to normal. Labels: 4 More Days
Professional
Friday, September 26, 20081:38 PM
Today was another boring day =[ got no choice to force myself to go bball again. I tink my shins going from bad to worst even now walk i can feel the pain inside out my bones. It seems to be even collasping at anytime of point. But at least i still got my hand still okay =x even thought my str was tat power like before ( maybe stay at home DOTA too long =x LOLS! ) So guys doe dota too much at home hands will become lik tofu lik that weak. Lh today so funny go gym liao come find us at BK then arm wrestle , can see he nuan liao cuz both hands also no str le haha.. He really do choing lols.
Then went to play pool with yc , gw , wl and yc's fren at pool fusion. At least a positive score after we left so wasnt tat bad =X Still got winssss HAHAHA~! Wanted to meet someone but so sad wasnt able to haix. When will it gonna be? I wasnt scamming but why doe believe me =[
First time i did when i get back is the holy job n it really does look nicer =DD so happy la i even created my own stem looks cool heehee. Sooner or later i gonna start the 1fa2falfaafavfaefanfadfaefarfarfaofasfaefasfa liao no time to lose =p gonna garb hold every minutes i have.
Labels: Slping In PROGESS
Project *HTMAGH*
Thursday, September 25, 20081:19 PM
Day 1 of the new project - HTMAGH- was a tedious process. Im doing it without any regrets and gonna give it all i have =DDD.
Today went to play basketball at my own risk , althought it pain but i still went to play cuz i cant stay at home =/ Missed the time playing but for my own good i should cut down the time playing cuz i doe wanna drop pes unlike some1 dragging me down with him. ( Should know who liao ba? )
After that around 10pm+ went to Mustafa with Tim to get the HOLY equipments to get my HOLY job going =p Then we went to mac to get started =x At first it was kinda hard by looking at it but after my hands on i find it even easier than cranes. Finally 1 done and the glue really sucks , gonna change later when i wake up cuz i doe wanna spoil any of the papers liao lols. Heres the pic on the *nice* out done =x I doe care comments cuz i find it nice =D
Thats all for today and i do really hope Tim doe scam me =pLabels: The Final Countdown
Random Post~
Wednesday, September 24, 200811:24 AM
Bu zhi bu jue de already past 3mths + at giordano liao at last freedom! But i just left with last 14 days to go and im nt looking forward to any tomorrow. Sometimes i even feel why tomorrow not oct 9th =/ Did made a lot of frens during my work time both in company n outside company n its interesting. Somehow i did miss those people there however ill still go visit them cuz i stay so close lols. Dont wish to elaborate too much what happened during the last few months.
Today went to JB wif Tim , Yx , Lh , Mabel and Sam , guess what ? The trip is so long yet and i yx did a very smart thing spending 4.80SGD to travel there to eat Mary Brown -_- Zomg? But doesnt matter as long my purpose there was served ( to look after mabel instructed by Tim) - a FOC somemore - Went to City Square to shop but the stuffs there are really KNS. Couldnt believe that they even got influenced to buy contact lens -_- diao really lik sheeps lalalala~ Walk till around 5+ our legs already failing us so we set off back to SG. Its really boring there i even think Bugis>City Square. The moment i reached home i just KO-ed on my bed lols , too tired waking up so early n sleeping so early in the morning =p
Somehow i do feel distanced this few days been thinking through why i still insist of taking the same route instead of changing? Its like nothing gonna change my mind once i have my mind set on something. But i really do hope to have some appreciation just a bit will do , seriously i will be damm contented about it. Sometimes i know i screwed the date but i did my best to savage. I know there shouldnt be any but(s) so i reframed myself from making the same mistake. I really really put in the effort to run this lap but i still cant see the finishing line. Every date meant everything to me but i doe noe wat it is to you. Every story has a ending , happy or sad so i gonna go out of it for a beautiful ending. =]
Tim gonna be my 1 day SHIFU! But somehow it sounds a bit unrealistic. Hope everything will be smooth.Labels: 12
